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The "What next...?" demon

What next?.... When I was a kid, I always thought that there is a certain age till when this question will bother me and after that, like for my parents, things will be in order. Life will fall into a routine and I will never again be confronted with this demon called "what next?". But turns out, for our generation, there is no point of rest. The demon is a part of our life like stability was for the generation before us. This realisation is also stale by now. In fact, it has been more than a few years since I even resigned to this way of life. The time period between such a realisation and resignation was hard, I must confess. But not anymore! The confrontations with this demon are a reassurance of life itself! (feels embarrassed after having said such things....)

My childish philosophies may be sounding hilarious to you (reader). (Thank me for the entertainment! You are welcome!)

What I wish to announce is: for a while, I do have an answer to one such "what next...?". I will be going to TIFR for my post-doc for the next academic year. I will be in Bombay (hurray) again. I will see the sunset again. I will travel by trains again. I will hang out in Colaba again. I'll eat homemade food again. (I mean, I have been doing this during last six years whenever I visited Bombay. But now I will do all of this much more often.) What bliss!

But may be I forgot to mention something....Did I mention that I have fallen for Chennai after all these years? Did I mention that I fear Bombay may have changed in six years? Did I mention that I am apprehensive about leaving MatSc which has been academically very fruitful? Did I mention that I am scared of starting a new phase of my life? Did I mention that there is still so much I haven't figured out about the days to come at Bombay? Did I mention that my lack of planning is making my parents perturbed? Did I mention that the demon fails to scare me but bothers my parents enormously? Did I mention that there is nothing I can to do to put them at ease? Did I forget to tell you that my apprehensions are not letting me enjoy my last few days at Chennai? Did I mention .....?

Comments

Shiva Kintali said…
Hi Nutan, Best of luck for your postdoc. I enjoyed reading your survey on LOGCFL.
8:01 PM
George S. said…
What about the perfect match as in prev post? You didn't mention anything.
9:03 PM
Nutan said…
@Shiva: Thanks! Thnaks!! :)

@George: Yes. I should have mentioned! The search is still on.
9:15 PM
George S. said…
When I saw the blog now, that post struck a chord with me.

That's because, in that month I was myself searching for a laptop, coz the earlier one lamentably had just got stolen.

In any case, good luck.
9:26 PM
Nutan said…
@George: So what did you buy? And why?
10:21 PM
Anonymous said…
All the very best !
12:47 AM
George S. said…
Unfortunately I do not have any suggestion to offer, as I am out of touch with such stuff for a long while.

What I did myself was to go for a cheaper one from ebay, due to financial constraints.

Again, in a US vist now, I notice that things are cheaper here.

Good luck at TIFR. Please convey my regards to Arijit.
4:29 AM
...i know said…
Hi nutan sorry for posting this question on wat appears a very agitating post?? but i was wondering f you have nay other contacts for himalayan trek jagoji seems to busy...we are running out of time.....was wondering if you can help us ou..my aplogies again
5:52 AM
Nutan said…
Hi Uday,

Not a problem.. I don't have any other contact. But Jangoji's son also now helps ...It would be best to contact Jangoji and ask him to help you find another guide.
4:03 AM
PRAVINTH G said…
Impressive !
9:40 PM
Anonymous said…
Congrats Nutan. Just got to know. Wish you all the best with your postdoc.

--
jayalal
9:01 PM
Nutan said…
Thanks.
5:37 AM
Towfeeque Aalam said…
I never thought I would ever leave Chennai, but I did,because I wanted to live of my own,Three years in Hyderbad and when I was leaving Hyderabad I was almost in tears, I think I cried too :). I was thinking, will I be able to see this Place again, those night outs with friends, midnight biryani, late night movies and what not.

Yeah Future is always a BIG Question. But life must go on, Dont you think life will become uninteresting if we know what is gonna happen next.

Best wishes and Keep writing.

Your new Fan.

Cheers
3:59 AM
Fool said…
Nice, writing! Though I am not too regular here or in reading!
12:32 PM
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